Been a couple months. Eh, folks? This past year has not been great or consistent for me on the creation front. I started my website and blog back in 2010. I’ve written a lot, I’ve created a lot, and I’ve talked to many of you on numerous occasions. At some point, I’ve come to feel like I have nothing new to add, not much that I haven’t already said before.
And then there is the matter of my audience, you folks. My original intention of starting on this path was to help other people with Bipolar Disorder find their way on their own wellness path. That goal was quickly overwhelmed by the friends and family of people with Bipolar Disorder reaching out to me, trying to make sense of what their loved ones were going through. The problem there is those are entirely different demographics.
Delivering effective messages to a group boils down to understanding that audience well enough to strike emotional chords that will resonate. I almost feel like it would have been better to split off with a different venture. But splitting is rarely a good thing for an audience or presence in general.
Where am I now? Aimless, mostly. I used to feel like I had a clear and distinct path. Now that I’ve walked that path for awhile, I feel more like I’m staring at a snowy field where I know the path is there, but it’s impossible to see.
Not too long ago I had a conversation with a friend who has followed my work for awhile now. And he suggested the importance of building relationships and alliances with other people instead of trying to stand alone. I’ve never really avoided building relationships or alliances. The problem I’ve always had is – what do you do with them if you have no meaningful ideas to move forward?
I’m not exactly the most sociable person as it is, which may or may not be apparent from my writing, and it seems like most group endeavors I’ve tried to be apart of have been more about keeping their own morale up than anything else.
That’s probably not a bad thing, but it’s just not something my brain needs. It’s more exhausting than anything.
My original strategy and goals landed in an entirely different place than expected. But, I think that was also because I wasn’t experienced with what I was stepping into. At first it was trying to help other people with Bipolar Disorder find good information. And then there was the realization of how few people with Bipolar Disorder, diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder by a professional, actually understood how severe and intrusive of a mental illness it is and just don’t take it as seriously as they should.
So, I don’t know.
Anyway, I mostly just wanted to post an update to let you know I’m still here and around, just aimless and feeling like I don’t have anything worthwhile to say that I haven’t already said before. I really don’t want to go the route of a lot of content creators and start producing junk content just to fill the void.
Realistically, I should probably just pick a random direction and go rather than losing more time.
Ah well. Thank you for being here.